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A Letter to Myself

I have to be honest to start the new year off right.

I have been reading other people’s reflections and resolutions for 2018 and I feel a bit stuck by comparison.

So I’ve decided to write this letter to myself.

I want to remind myself of this moment of transition, so that I have something to look back at as the year goes on.

Here we go:

I am definitely the type of person who enjoys setting goals but this is the first time in a long time where I don’t have a clear idea of what I want or where I’m going.

And I think the lesson in this moment is for me to learn to be ok with that and not try to fix the situation with a temporary solution.

I know we’re supposed to use this time of year to reflect, reset and then barrel down on the path to achieve new, great heights but I genuinely feel like it is ok to allow myself some time to not have an idea of what I want or where I’m going.

Like I said above – I set goals.

I always have a plan and I am always living in preparation of the next step. While it’s gotten me so far and I am grateful for everything from my opportunities to my work ethic, I do feel like it’s taken me to a place where self-care and happiness have taken a back seat.

And despite not knowing everything about who I want to be and what I want to achieve this year, I do know one thing for certain:

I can’t keep living this way. 

So I am trying something new for the beginning of 2018. I’m giving myself a time out.

That’s right. I’m calling time.

Time to actually reflect on past achievements. Time to determine where I actually want to go with my personal and professional careers. And time to become the best version of myself so I have a successful foundation to present the best version of myself for the rest of the world.

I’ve spent the greater part of the past few years working toward things that I have absolutely no desire to be doing.

On paper or to others these seemed like the “right things to do.” But did I really want to be doing them? No, not really. And it has cultivated to a point where I genuinely feel like the universe is rejecting the choices I’ve made as a means of telling me that I need to head in a new direction.

So that is what I am going to focus on in 2018.

I am choosing to be honest with myself, with you all and hopefully with the universe to manifest a more positive energy in my life.

 

I am putting myself first and deciding that self-care is not selfish, that sometimes you have to let go and let God and trusting that no matter what happens, everything works out the way it’s supposed to and things will fall into place at the right time.

I’m excited for the unknown and can’t wait to see where this year takes me. As always, thank you for following along on my journey! I am grateful to have you.

2018, let’s do this!

 

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6 Comments

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    Charlotte
    January 1, 2018 at 6:22 pm

    I am so proud of You! When I was at church last night, my pastor said do not fear the unknown because God knows and He will bring you THROUGH and OVER. It takes great strength, vulnerability and courage to write what you just wrote and you will be greater because of it.

    Love you Alex!!

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      lexniko
      January 2, 2018 at 8:55 am

      Thank you so much! It is definitely a new feeling for me which makes it scary but I am putting my trust in knowing it’s all working out for the best. <3

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    Liz
    January 1, 2018 at 7:00 pm

    This is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing. Excited for what 2018 will bring!

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      lexniko
      January 2, 2018 at 8:56 am

      Thank you for reading! I am so excited too – there is so much room for possibility!

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